Disappear

I think you should just disappear from my life because ever since you appeared, my life has turned upside down. Well, not literally or really as bad as what you think it would be. But, seriously. If we had not met each other, it would have been less painful.

If we had not met each other, things would have been much easier for me.

You're just a regret I'm having all the time. You made it look so surreal to me and then you went away, just like that. It happened and I will never forget it. Maybe I will, someday, but do you know that once you have met someone, you never really forget them. Nothing that happens is ever forgotten.

You were my biggest mistake. I shouldn't have trusted you and your lies. The biggest mistake I have made is letting you stay in my life far longer than you deserved to.

xoxolowelaine

What now?

Helloooo it has been long isn't it? Well, I guess I was just too carried away with works. Don't really have the spare time to blog about anything plus the laziness. Lol as usual -.-

I've missed out so many things to tell. Things have definitely changed. First of all, my hair. It's now a bob.

But that is not what I have in mind now :( I'm like, mood-less right now. Probably because of my public exam's result is coming out soon or maybe other reason. And I personally think that growing up is hard. You want everything to be perfect and if it doesn't you feel as if locking yourself up in a room and be by yourself. That is what I am feeling right now. Stuck in reverse you call it? I don't know, whatever you named it. Tension, yes. Tired, yes. Confused, yes. Escape from reality? HELL YES PLEASEEEE!

Fantasy is necessary. It gives me some kind of salvation.

Fantasy promises escape from reality. They take us out of the real world of hard facts, hard objects and hard decision into a world of wonders and enchantments. Sometimes, I feel like escaping from reality and be alone but knowing the fact that I am a human being and fantasy is just a fantasy, an imagination. I guess you'll think that I'm crazy lol but I do wonder what it feels like to be in another world, that allows you to be alone. I like to be alone :3 okay, this creeps the hell out of me -.- okay, well. Maybe I said all that is because I'm tired. Been busy working today so yeah.

A friend of mine told me "You know, you should be happy instead of being sad to know what other people think of you. Life is short. You'll never stop finding out what other people said or think of you". Well, I think I should thank her and you know who you are :)

I could go on and on but I really need a rest lol I came here just because I think I really need to have my blog updated. So, good night! <3

P/S: Booked a cruise trip to Krabi-Phuket in mid of March :D Looking forward to it! Actually, it was Bangkok but my sister will be going to Bangkok instead of me lol Anyway, it's fine by me.

See ya!

xoxoforeverlowelaine

Alpha B*tch

In this post I'm going to talk about an Alpha B*tch. Someone I'll never reveal the name here. It's for me know and hopefully for you to find out (if you can).

First of all, let me apologize because of the delays =/ You know, I'm working and CNY is happening now so I don't really have much time to blog about anything plus the laziness I had in me lol. Okay, done. Let's get back to Alpha B*tch topic.

1) I'm not a place for you to sympathize on. Go to orphanage if you feel like doing so. Because I'm a normal human and I have parents and I'm independent so I think it's best if you stop.

2) I'm not even a place for you to feel superior. If you're feeling you're so great and all, good then. Nobody wants to know about that Keep it to yourself.

3) You're fake. And you're telling other people they're fake too? Oh come on!

I could go on and on and on but too bad I have to work tmrw and I can't. So, to keep it short. You really hurt me badly with everything you have said and done. I seriously hope there is a way out for me to forgive you but right now I just can't find any. Just so you know, I'm not whining about who and who is hurting me cus I don't really care anymore but this is to let you know every fking thing you did on purpose and without purpose.

For all the while I kept quiet and you thought I was an idiot whom you can cheat on anytime...Now I know your true nature, I'd never want to go near you anymore. You may look down on me, badmouth me, or do whatever shits behind my back but there is one thing you should know, is that none of the shits you do will ever break me down. Well, it just reminds me of how stupid, ridiculous and childish you are at times and thanks to you, it motivates me even stronger to work harder and get things I want by myself. And to know the fact that I do not need you. You never helped me when I needed your help or at least showed me the opportunity to help me. And to be very honest here, I don't wanna hate you seriously but what you have done so far had no reasons for me not to hate you.

I might sound childish to someone but all I know now is, I'd rather be the stupid-me, than to be fooled by you. Cus one day it's gonna hit right on your face real hard to tell you there is no stupid people in the world for you to feel superior by treating them in whatever way you like.

The only thing worse is when someone I trusted so much makes that choice for me. Wish you have a good life ahead.

Good night readers! Hope to see you all again! :)

xoxolowelaine

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Gong Hei Fatt Choi! May this year of Dragon brings you prosperity, health and wealth! Also, leads you to the path of big fortune. Have fun this year and all the best!!

xoxolowelaine

OMFG

Sorry for not updating for the past few days because I've been so fking busy with ending 2011 and welcoming 2012. After Christmas lunch with family... well, actually I can't recall of which exactly comes first after Christmas lunch. LOL. But, nvm, to keep it short, during NYE, mom, siblings and I went on cruise and later at night couz and I had steamboat and I slept VERY LATE and I got up the next day which is today =.= feeling like killing somebody! But, I wouldn't want to start my 2012 that way =3 So, basically, on the first day of 2012, we had a BBQ party. Families get together! It has been long! :D Okay, I look like I'm writing an essay on 2012. It's because I didn't update my blog for so many days and I have a lot to write ==

I'll start working tmrw! Wish me best of luck cus I'm trying to earn $$ as much as possible cus there are so many things I'm not able to do without them! ($$) T_T

Anyway, will update more about the happenings during the past few days! Especially NYE and 1/1/2012 BBQ Party, etc.

Heading to bed now! Feelin' all tipsy after drinking =3 and I have to wake up at 5AM tmrw. You know? 5 IN THE MORNING TOMORROW. UGH. But, nvm, nvm. I need money now $_$

Good night!! xx

xoxolowelaine