Silly me!

I did a very stupid thing during the exam this morning. Even until now, I still have no idea why was I so careless and that was very embarrassing, really.

Not many students who took Business so, we were told to sit in different place. I sat two tables in front from my actual one for Business paper. Candidates have to fill in the spaces such as IC numbers and their index numbers on the answer sheet. Guess what? I wrote wrong index number on the answer sheet!

The examiner came and asked who handed in TWO answer papers with same index number but with different writings and I was like oh damnnn is it me? He then went to my friend with 1107 index number and asked her and she picked out her paper. The examiner showed the wtf face then he came to me, asking me whether the other paper belongs to me. LOL. So, I looked at the paper confusingly, saw my answers/writings and said "OH WAI IZ TIS 1107!?" I didn't even know I write it wrong so yeah, embarrassing much :/ Then, I changed it to my index number.

But, wasn't it funny? It has my IC number there as well and they can always have it checked. Oh well, I guess that's the rule and they have to be alert. But, I still can't accept the fact why was I so clumsy T_T I remember writing down the index number beginning of the paper so there is no way I could have written it wrongly. But, it happened! So I was wrong. Great.

I spent half an hour at McD with dad and bro, thinking of how I did such stupid mistake. Then, I think it's because I was so blur in the morning and followed the index number glued on the table without realizing it's not my table!

-The End-

I can't help with it but to complain -.- oh dear me

P/S: A total of 6 hours of sleep since Monday until now, is very bad. Blame the timetable. But, it's a good thing that I have 7 days of break now, I can slumber all I want x)

Good night all!

xoxolowelaine

Shawty gettiin' in the way

I'm trying not to be mean here but it seems like I can't help it cus being real and in the end, you got nothing. I guess it's just jealousy. Well, it's about time for me to stand for my own because most of the time when I did not, people tend to step on you. And I regretted because it hurts my pride to give in for a small, little and short girl who looks absolutely nothing if compared to anyone else. C'mon if you're jealous then say it to my face, you don't have to do things behind my back and make people get the whole idea wrongly.

The problem is; I guess you are short enough that is why you can't see things thoroughly. (EVERYTHING). To only hear or judge things from only one side and not hearing to another side, it already shows your true self. So, don't judge me if you do not know me, until you've walk my path.

It annoys me every time I have to see your face. I've said I will just forgive but definitely not forget the shits you did to me but if being real is like what you are now, I'd sincerely wish you have a good life ahead.

Also, I'd like to wish everyone who trusted you a good life, because I hope they heard the right thing, they might have heard the right thing but just the ones you have twisted. I might be...pain in the ass at times because it's just me! Shawty, c'mon, you just can't bring someone else down because you think you are short better than that or you don't like my way of living. I can go out and my family shows concern ofc but I can't reveal much about how my family lets me live my own life. What is wrong with the way I'm living? Receiving confessions almost four times a week from guys, I did not plan for this kind of thing to happen anyway! Accepting people is what you do in real life, by seeing what you did, it's more than enough already to prove what you are. Being fake so people would accept you because of the fear you have in you, they might not accept for who you are.. a midget. A midget looks so small and so sweet, so fragile, people might fall for it :o

There are things you sure don't know for example; different people have different styles of living. AND I AM NOT YOU, so don't expect everyone to live exactly the way you want or the way you're happy with it.

But things you don't know about me that you might want to know, I have a very strong and powerful verbal communication. I can be sweet as an angel and can be ruthless when double-crossed. I'm not complimenting myself but I'm speaking the truth. LOL. -troll face-

Girls like YOU are troublesome. I guess my kind won't get along very well with your kind of people ::: short people. I'm not pin-pointing someone but I'm doing it indirectly. Say it to my face if you don't like it but first, lemme tell you, don't come all the way telling it to my face because you don't like the way how I describe you, SHORT. short to the short, to the short, to the very short.

See? This is not childish, well maybe some of you might think it is but for me, I hate doing this but who did it first in the first place? I was so kind to give it in but you were always the one to continue it. It's always the short-midget people. It hurts my head to talk to you every time, sorry, I meant, to look. I don't talk to people like you. Because it's very troublesome, I might break my neck if I look a little longer at your troublesome face. -troll face-

Oh and I'm selfish, I don't deny that. Because in a world you're living in now, sometimes you have to be selfish to people like that, short people. When you don't they tend to step on you and it's better to be before you regret it! Or before you get your pride hurt.

People changes from time to time. For instance, I've changed but for good of course. Of course you don't change because I don't see any changes of height there! But there is one change for sure, you've changed to a more.. *can't find a word* person. A midget I'd say. (and a lot older)

Sigh. I've said this a trillion times but it seemed like nobody could understand. I forgave you long time ago for what you've done and I did not deny what I did before this was wrong. So, if YOU decide to start it all over again, you are sure of a person who doesn't know what is life all about. And that makes my hatred towards you grow just stronger. Thanks. That's an achievement!

Change will only come about when each of us takes up daily struggle ourselves to be more forgiving, compassionate, loving, and above all joyful in the knowledge that, by some miracle of grace, we can change as those around us can change too.

Don't simply make assumptions of what kind of people you have met until you've walked their path. There must be a reason why they are acting like that. You can't and you don't tell it by just saying "I knew it cus I saw it in her eyes, it tells lies". Because, there is no such thing as you look into someone's eyes and you'd know every single thing about their past.

For God's sake, hope you have a bless life ahead and be blessed. This will be the last post about YOU, a troublesome midget, I hope so. Because, my life would be off better without you. Do whatever you want or whatever you wish, I shall not know about it anymore for God's sake.

God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me.

I sounded like a badass people, that is why I hate doing this but be glad YOU are in my blog! ;D

Just couldn't stand it when people like give everything in and forgive but all what you did was far away more than what I've done.

P/S: You need not to tell anyone or even spread or maybe my family about what am I doing with my life. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS SHORT GIRL! *rolls eyes* and I can afford all those things I bought and because I worked hard for it. And just because I can afford it -.-

Back to MA!

xoxolowelaine

Overload

Good evening! Tomorrow will be the day for Economic paper 2 (Macroeconomic). Wish me luck people! I really need them. LOL. The day after tomorrow will be Business paper 2. After that, for God's sake, 8 days break! Combination of these two papers are enough to damage your brain T_T So many things to remember! Now I know why I'm not allowed to drive to school until STPM is over.

STPM is tougher than Matriculation because STPM students study one whole 20+ chapters for each subjects (4 subjects = 8 papers = 4[2]x20=160 chapters, or more than that) and take final exam, CGPA is based on the final exam. While Matriculation students study for a few chapters and sit for an exam, each semester and the CGPA is based on the marks they got for each semester. (I'm not sure but it's more or less the same) Oh, and they get tips from lecturers while STPM students don't! Oh well, but being a STPM student has its advantage too ;) Being a Matriculation student has its advantage as well.

Remember the unknown guy named Ric I have talked about in the previous post? He called again. But, I didn't answer cus I was too busy sleeping lol who cares anyway ugh -.-

I find this interesting somehow or somewhat. There is this game on Facebook where, you liked a friend's status, he/she will give you a letter. For me, I got Letter D and I have to write on something I like, hate, love and someone I know, starts with Letter D. So, I write on something I love, a dildo lol just joking. I'm sure you know what is just joking right? -.- Why on Earth would I love that? LOL. Not joking, seriously. xD Oh well o__o

Kthxbai. Needa prepare for MA tmrw! *trembles

xoxolowelaine

Like, duh!

I hate to say this but I know I'm going to say anyway, I hate the idea of how stupid some people can be. And that people refers to my maid.

Seriously? Can't you just use your brain to think rather than asking me all the time?? It's damn annoying and I'm sorry, I'm a bit temperamental. Or whatever. I just couldn't stand the stupidity and let me repeat, I hate to say this but... ugh!

I'm in my computer room and the alarm clock in my room was ringing, you were just at the living hall which is very near to my room and couldn't you just fking go and off the alarm clock??! You didn't have to tell me to off it while it was so obvious you could have just walked in and shut the alarm ==

Enough for the complaining, I guess it's just.. studies -_- time to wake my dad up for work!

Kthxbai!

xoxolowelaine

Problem?

I can't study nor do anything. Okay, I'm blogging.

Now, that's really a problem.

But, I just won't freaking open the Goddamnit book -.-

Economic Paper 2 is on this coming Tuesday followed by Business Paper 2. After that, it's 8 days breakkk! :D Happy max - short term though T_T

So, I signed in Facebook during the night, not during the day anymore. My friend said something to me made me feel so perasan *flips hair* They actually felt the emptiness on Facebook when I wasn't around hehehehe

Then, I shared quite a lot of LOL photos. It's not a good thing you know? Because when you shared something like that way too much, you get trolled in the end -.- fyi, my comp just auto restarted when I was thinking of what to write.

I have so much to complain about and I can't do it here D: Especially the happy and sad feelings I'm feeling right now.

Because, I'm so stressed that everyone's so stressed except me! And that I have to return to my book.

15th of December seems so near but yet so far T_____________T

The fact that you cannot kiss your elbow is enough to make you realize that some things seem to be so close, yet they are bound to be beyond your reach..

I'm happy because it's reaching soon and sad at the same time because I got tortured for no reason, like today! I've no paper but have to study. Not only for today, for 5 days! And next up... 8 days! Imagine that!

Oh, and I got a call from a guy, unknown guy who claimed to be Ric. So, I thought it was another friend of mine who was trying to play a prank but he seemed like he was not -.-

Me: I do not know anyone by the name Ric shut the fuck up and get lost

Ric: What’s your name?

Me: No name

Ric: Seriously, please?

Me: Oh you beg?

Ric: Where are you from?

Me: Malaysia?

Ric: Where?

Me: KL

Ric: I see, so you’re a Chinese?

Me: Me? A Chinese? Fuck me NO I’M A MALAY

Ric: u fucking serious???

Me: Problem? -troll face-

****hangs up****

C'mon! I was sleeping -.- so don't mess around when I'm having my sweet time =3 Heh, but I still think he is someone I knew of but he was messing around so, too bad boy!

Note: All the photos up there have nothing to do with the post today! Just..random.

Okay, that is all! If I ever continue I don't think I'd finish crapping -.-

Back to my books! :'(

P/S: Thanks to those who wished! Also, I'm thankful to have you guys, like asking me if I'm okay and how is thing going on with stpm and all, thank you really! xx

xoxolowelaine

I SO SAD AT YOU

I iz sad T_T

I'm shocked :O

I'm amazed whao

I'm surprised... that

I can't believe I shed my tears for Economic Paper 1.

I've finished every single fking question...in the question papers and the thing is we're ought to hand in the answer sheets, not the question papers! I thought I'd have enough time to write the answers on the answer sheets but I was wrong. Missed out three Goddamnit and farewell my 30 marks! fml man T_T

The worst part was, when the invigilator was standing just right in front of me, I was still shading the objective section.

Gotta stop being so upset about this cus I know I can't do anything but just hope for the best!...

BUT HOW COULD I POSSIBLY HOPE FOR THE BEST WHEN 30 MARKS HAVE DISAPPEARED JUST LIKE THAT?

Oh well, forget it -.- Whining much? Sigh. There's still a chance to redeem my mistakes. Although Econs paper 2 is wayyy harder but I have always been focusing more on Macro, compared to Micro.

That is all for today! Oh btw, this whole idea of STPM public examinations is just crazy and mental torturing.

Imagine I have 5 days of break, after that,

2 days of 2 hardcore papers then,

8 days of break followed by,

1 day exam, 5 days break then,

another paper, 1 day break and oh God like finally, last paper == so, see ya guys on the 15th Dec!

I know it is good because I can prepare myself more but I hate the idea I have to suffer every single day even if it's not an exam day. And I absolutely hate the idea of me being the first child! Kthxbai!

xoxolowelaine

Like, seriously?

Can't you be happy for me cus I think it's a nice picture.

Well, for the very first time of my entire life on Earth, my friend actually said this picture looks ugly/horrible/omg/wtf or whatever. Like, seriously? Oh c'mon.

Please be happy for me.

Kthxbai.

xoxolowelaine

A journey to remember

Hello! My post today is a simple one. Finally, I’ve graduated...officially! Or not yet .__. Or on the 15^th December will be the my final day as a student in Penang Free School.

But, who cares! I had loads of fun today in school because today was the last day of school, for every student. Mine finished last two weeks ago.

So, I went around the school today to take some photos with the teachers and they wished us all the best for this coming Monday’s STPM. *trembles

It was a wonderful journey. The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.

Throughout my time in Lower Six and Upper six, it has been a wonderful journey, I’m blessed to have such friends who went through ups and downs with me together, always here when I’m down and etc. It doesn’t matter anymore who came and left, the most important part is, to focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity, but in doing it.

The journey of Your Highness..

Like a boss -troll face-


Through ups and downs, life in school is pretty hard sometimes that I couldn't help it but to..


sleep. But, life has to move on.


Busy like a boss. Actually I was on my way to the pond for a friend's birthday celebration. I was late because I had to attend vocal training for the Beauty and the Beast drama.

Besides that, me, Your Highness as the school prefect, I was pretty busy..


School assemblies, *points* that was during Teachers' Day. Sighs* To be honest, we prefects have to do almost everything. Well, my 'everything' included *can't say it here* -troll face-


LOL. *clears throat* Your Highness giving speech xD


Serious business. Was in Penang Sports Club twice for Interact Club's event. As the co MC of the day, with Benedict << the most talented guy on Earth.


Talent Time 2010


Interact Club's Installation day held in Penang Free School's main hall. Our theme was suapa FOREST AKA Go Green ;D

Then, another event. Friends and I went to Seremban for umm three days for a talk. "What is Interact about?" The answer is...


Sleeping. How appropriate xD


Then :O I got stalked. This was.. I wasn't sure when but I think this was during the Lower Six Orientation Games, where we get to torture get to know our dear Juniors *grins*


Hehehehe! Painting people's face is the most fun thing to do on Earth!


Act cute is one of them =3


The huge event ::: Annual Sports Day. I was in Wu Lien Teh aka green house. All my life since primary until now, I was in green house. Semangat hijau! *flips hair*


Then, my surprised birthday party by my classmates in school. That was last year. They successfully turned me into a horrible and terrible *can't find a word*


Then, friend's birthday outside school. As you can see the lamest person on Earth is still wearing their school uniform. That was my leg xD


Then, after a talk in USM about ELLS course, we went to a friend's house to have a relaxing time. Apparently all the what-to-take-after-STPM drove us crazy and we needed a break. Big people with small and little forest =3

I like it it's so dramatic :O


Queuing to pee go down to...another pool. But we couldn't make it cus it was way deeper T_T


As much as I missed Lower Six cus we get to go out almost every week. Outing with friends! xx


Then, friends who went to colleges. It is a good thing we still keep in touch although we're not in the same school. I, was in a friend's house, having an advertisement session so I promoted everything she has in her closet.


I need not elaborate further -.-


Yes..yes..I know


Dinner in TGIF, Queensbay Mall with my dearest Mdm Malini and English Literature classmates!


This was last year's Prom, when I was in Lower Six. Theme of the Prom was Masquerade.


Vain much =3


Lala land LOL. Notice the hands?? 1..2..3! xD okay lame -.-


Then, I won the title of Freshie Queen. Meaning, the Prom Queen for Lower Sixes.


So, this was last few months back. My Upper Six Prom x) Theme of the night was Hollywood. *silence*


Steph!! My good friend in PFS ;D


Bet you can't see me =3


Uhmm, you describe the photo kthxbai


A snapshot of me and Benedict!


Me and mei =3 so, lastly, I won the Best Dressed title. End of story.


My God bro's wedding! All these five young ladies are my sisters. Cousins to be exact but we're like close sisters :D


Although my life in Penang Free School as a Form Six student, you must have thought that it's awful, miserable, suck, very tiring and a waste of time. But, it wasn't that really bad. With friends you can trust, fool around, everything will turn out alright.


Besides academic, co curriculum is another thing. The biggest event I've taken part in was as a lead actress/role in The Beauty and the Beast drama. Apart from that, this is also what I like to do. Was involved in The King and I last year as a minor role though.


In Dewan Budaya, USM. Final week of the Drama. Had some time to chill out with friends/cast. Thought I'd screwed the whole thing up at first but everything turned out pretty awesome at last :P


Combination of all the pictures taken during the full dressed rehearsal. Looking enchanted isn't it? x)


The real show day. Was very cold at the backstage and had to cover myself up with hoodie. With full make up but hair undone.


In main cast waiting room. Another day with another hoodie! Friends, meet Sarah Yeoh! ;D My friend/junior in PFS/cast. Same, face with full make up but hair undone.

At backstage, calming myself down by checking out the photos my friend has taken before the show started. I was kind enough to share my main cast room with others. Because, this time the Dewan's smaller compared to Dewan Sri Pinang last year where we had our musical of The King and I. Basically, one changing room for all the cast and you know? I can't share my changing room with others as I've a lot to change. So, a few shared with me. This room is also used for make up room! Imagine how crowded would it be? Another room, which was my main cast room. Teacher director has given out instructions not to let others come in and interrupt but as long as they keep quiet and let me rest, I wouldn't mind to let them have the space in the room :)

Get to know each other is a good thing! ;D So, people won't have the bad thinking of how show off I was -.- and I'm not. Was playing around with one of the backstage crew. Naughty crews, bully me kao kao and because I was having so much fun fooling around until I forgot that I was the main star that night..and that I had to take care of my image and to show I'm all decent!


Smile :)


A picture with a helpful crew :)


Act 1 Scene 1 - Belle in town.


Combinations of all the photos taken during the real show day!


Another one


This shot was taken by a photographer. Belle in library, got a surprise from the Beast and the Beast starts to fall for her.

[PARODY] Belle: Now, the whole library is mine, get lost!


I loved the red gown! It's so pwetty =3 oh, this was the ballroom scene. Waltz with the Beast.


Before curtain call. This is the second time I'm showing this photo because I just simply love it!


Biggest celebration ever in my Form Six life! xx After that, an interview session with the reporter from Star.


After a week, it came out in Star newspaper. Two other papers as well the following days. Two full page with fantastic write up!

Hehehehehehe I find this hilarious lol

[PARODY]Belle: My husband is an animal.

Okay, so, that was how it ended up :) Really missed it, those crazy times we had in the main cast room and everywhere in the auditorium xD Oh have I ever told you that there was once I went up to this little balcony on each side of the auditorium and I looked down from up there. The responses I got were *can't find a word* Teacher directors and student directors were yelling O.O

Last day of school 18/11/11. In the middle, Mr Lim. The discipline master.

Me with Miss Ling! x)


Me and Teik Min with Mdm Ruby, my teacher adviser for 4th Rangers Unit Uniform Body! Really helped me a lot with filling in details for my testimonial form, you know..it's very important if you're applying for Uni. Thanksss! xxx


After that when I was on my way to the co-co room with him, first kick a** attempt LOL. He did not know I was actually doing that behind him.


Couldn't get enough huh? Second attempt without him knowing x)


Okay then here we are with Mdm Nor Baini in her co-co room, our co-co teacher. She kissed me on both my cheeks before leaving, as she wished me best of luck for my STPM.


Mr Syamsul, our Business sir. Although I hate Business as how much as I hate worms. But, yeah, one of Uni's requirements is to get at least a credit for Business and ugh. I hate the idea of this but it's not like I have a choice, righttt?


Co-co room is very near to Staff Room B. So, we went to take some pictures with Miss Girlie! She was our costume teacher for Beauty and the Beast, it means the head for every kind of departments. We had ticketing, costumes, props, backstage crews, backdrop, programme book, etc.


Alas, the third attempt outside Staff Room B x) but failed.


LOL. Damnnn he found out! No more kicking a**


On our way back to Prefects' room, this is our LADS board (Literary and Debating Society). Our year was much more creative! ;D The Lower Six took over this board so kthxbai

Hehehehe I just loved to disturb people when they're eating xD Oh well I know it's rude but it was the last day of school and I know they wouldn't mind either xD Joelle (sitting down) looked as if *oh wai iz tis happening tooh mii* and the guy on the right Siew Hung, we called him taugeh cus his family runs taugeh business, beansprout.



Okay, so we let them have their time to prepare. Time=2 secs.


Like a boss, Take #1. My girl temps or girl juniors. Both were also in the same school as me.


Like a boss, Take #2.


Boy temps or boy juniors, all of them except the one in the middle.


Joelle wheeee ._.


Me with Jason. A nice guy, who just cannot live a day without teasing you to the max. Oh and he is my junior and I'm nice to my juniors x)


Cam whore failed, Take #1


Take #2


Not with my eyes closed again! Failed take #3


Take #4


Ehehehe *shy/blushes


Now, I'm all lazy zzz lazy is a disease. Bad disease -.-


I hope it functions properly during my exams!

B*tich please, I'm trying to study T_T

MUET test tmrw! Wish me luck people!

xoxolowelaine