Alive or Dead?

I DIED. I DIED. I DIED. I DIED. I DIED.

I DIED T_T

Hello! Greetings from another Universe. I'm no longer "alive" here as I am very disappointed to the extent I'd have killed myself and I had a thought of it but I had not enough guts to do it anyway, sigh. I've to keep telling myself, this is not the end of the world YET!

The reason why am I still thinking positive is because of Bill Gates. He is truly an inspiration for me. I admire him and.. lo..v.. nope, I admire him. He is the reason why I ain't giving up and still giving myself a chance.

"Don't compare yourself with anyone in this world.. if you do so, you are insulting yourself" - Bill Gates.

I am living up by this quote and is still finding it hard to accept because I simply compare myself with someone who is way better than me. I can't help it. I have always tried not to do so but it's just.. helpless .__. Maybe because I think by comparing yourself with someone better, you'll eventually learn that you'll need to improve yourself and that motivates you to work even more harder and earn extra in life! Isn't it? Isn't it?! But, towards the bad side of it, it shows that you're one of those who lacks of confidence :) Have no self-beliefs lol (I think so is it right? Idk whatever you geddit I geddit, the end). So yeah, this is basically what I'm trying to tell here.

"I studied every thing but never topped.... But today the toppers of the best universities are my employees" - Bill Gates

Well, that depends actually, to what kind of person you are. It all depends on you, cus you'll be the one deciding your own path to the future. Bad or good, it's all your choice. It's the matter of you want it OR not. It's not about getting perfect and excellent in your academics well I mean, it is definitely important for all of us; the qualification. Some might think paper qualification is bullshit, talents are much more important. Well, for me I think both are equally important. Paper qualification is like your backup in everything you want to do but failed to do, so, this paper qualification backs you up. Without it, you probably won't get far. I personally think that academic is very important and I don't really like to study. But, I'm doing it just because I think this qualification you get in the future after you graduate, means something, something that I have achieved and that is the reason why I'm continuing my studies :)

"I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I am the owner of Microsoft." - Bill Gates

Ever wonder how can a person be so perfect in live although not everything seems to be so perfect at the same time? Let me tell you, I don't pretty much believe in luck for exams, it's only all about your hard work and rewards after that. Now, this quote above is about talent. He is a talented man, smart brain. Passing exams or scoring with flying colors doesn't make you smart. It is the way you think and how you develop your thinking ( I hope I get it right ). Discipline is another thing. "I failed some of it not because you're smarter than me, just because I'm lazier than you". I think I have said enough. Not making this post any longer and complicated, I shall leave for bed!

I hope what you get what you have just read/I have written. If otherwise , figure it out yourself what I've written. I admit, there's still a lot more for me to learn, A LOT. But, what I have said is according to my experience :)

PS; Bill Gates entered Harvard in the fall of 1973, only to drop out two years later to found Microsoft with childhood friend, Paul Allen.

Lol good night kthxbai

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End of the world

The world is finally coming to an end. Like seriously, but not literally. STPM RESULTS COMING OUT THIS WEDNESDAY !! And I still have no reasons why should I be worrying. And yeah I am nervous and I keep telling myself to calm down and relax but it doesn't help at all. I don't think it is necessary to get nervous and all because I did what I was supposed to do and it was over :) And also I have tried my very best. If, the best turns out otherwise then there is nothing I can do. There must be something wrong with the examiners :D

Okay, till then guys! Wish me luck :D I believe in lucks but not in studies cus it's all about hard work :) but still, wish me luck aite. LOL. Thank you allll and I love youuuu :***

Good night! Bye and see you guys soon! The next update is probably going to be my results == well. I hope it is nice to blog lol cus if it's not nice then you will not see me blogging for the rest of my entire life kthxbai

xoxolowelaine

and then there was you

A kiss is a lovely trick designed

by nature to stop speech

when words became superfluous.

by Ingrid Bergman

That is all for today! Just another random quote which I think is sweet :3 and it's also for someone *wink wink

Adios!

xoxolowelaine

Disappear

I think you should just disappear from my life because ever since you appeared, my life has turned upside down. Well, not literally or really as bad as what you think it would be. But, seriously. If we had not met each other, it would have been less painful.

If we had not met each other, things would have been much easier for me.

You're just a regret I'm having all the time. You made it look so surreal to me and then you went away, just like that. It happened and I will never forget it. Maybe I will, someday, but do you know that once you have met someone, you never really forget them. Nothing that happens is ever forgotten.

You were my biggest mistake. I shouldn't have trusted you and your lies. The biggest mistake I have made is letting you stay in my life far longer than you deserved to.

xoxolowelaine

What now?

Helloooo it has been long isn't it? Well, I guess I was just too carried away with works. Don't really have the spare time to blog about anything plus the laziness. Lol as usual -.-

I've missed out so many things to tell. Things have definitely changed. First of all, my hair. It's now a bob.

But that is not what I have in mind now :( I'm like, mood-less right now. Probably because of my public exam's result is coming out soon or maybe other reason. And I personally think that growing up is hard. You want everything to be perfect and if it doesn't you feel as if locking yourself up in a room and be by yourself. That is what I am feeling right now. Stuck in reverse you call it? I don't know, whatever you named it. Tension, yes. Tired, yes. Confused, yes. Escape from reality? HELL YES PLEASEEEE!

Fantasy is necessary. It gives me some kind of salvation.

Fantasy promises escape from reality. They take us out of the real world of hard facts, hard objects and hard decision into a world of wonders and enchantments. Sometimes, I feel like escaping from reality and be alone but knowing the fact that I am a human being and fantasy is just a fantasy, an imagination. I guess you'll think that I'm crazy lol but I do wonder what it feels like to be in another world, that allows you to be alone. I like to be alone :3 okay, this creeps the hell out of me -.- okay, well. Maybe I said all that is because I'm tired. Been busy working today so yeah.

A friend of mine told me "You know, you should be happy instead of being sad to know what other people think of you. Life is short. You'll never stop finding out what other people said or think of you". Well, I think I should thank her and you know who you are :)

I could go on and on but I really need a rest lol I came here just because I think I really need to have my blog updated. So, good night! <3

P/S: Booked a cruise trip to Krabi-Phuket in mid of March :D Looking forward to it! Actually, it was Bangkok but my sister will be going to Bangkok instead of me lol Anyway, it's fine by me.

See ya!

xoxoforeverlowelaine