Are you?

It's an old song I know! Anyway, enjoy! :)

Song of the night

This song will accompany me for this whole night. The title of the video says it all.

It's been long......right?

I...finally have some time to update this going-to-die blog. Well, I've been busy and always wanted to share my days here but time just won't let me do this. So, now, having extremely lots of stuff in my head, I don't know which to start first. Lemme think....but first. Let me tell you this. After all these while, I finally get to learn human nature and that has taught me to be a different person. I am a different E-Laine now. I've learned so many things in their very own hard way. In life, you learn to succeed, right?

...I'm a boring person now compared to the old me (LOL) Do you think so? I am not that talkative anymore (ooops) Now, you know I was a talkative person. It is surprising how things changed just in a short period. For eg, my baby cousin is now already near to one-year old and that reminds me I'm no longer a young girl. I am young *smirks* but you know -.- this is my last year of teenage life. YOUNG TEENAGE LIFE. My doom day is on the 22nd yes, this coming June 22nd. Which is my first day of show as well as the day he's leaving...to somewhere it makes me feel that my life in this little island wouldn't be the same anymore. To be able to think carefully and clearly of what I've always wanted and not choosing the path that will lead to the devastation of my life and future.

BE REALISTIC, E-LAINE

1) I have less than 2 weeks to musical *slams head*

2) I am so freaking near to STPM *gasps*

3) So many of school activities right after musical - Orientation Ball, Sports Day, Kolokium, STPM Trials, FINALS FML needless to say, tuition like it will never end..

Boring isn't? All of these are about STUDY STUDY STUDY. But, seriously educations are by far *winks* therefore, don't be lazy people! *whistles*

I shall continue to write more after this. Don't want this post to be too congested of what I want to say, simply because I have so many things to write and something is not meant to be written here. Think about it first. Bye! :D

Simple

My friends always used to tell me..

"If something happened, take it easy and for good, something better or much more wonderful will come. God have His own reason for things happened or did not happen."

Well, I have encountered with pretty much problems lately and my one and only solution to all the problems is to be SIMPLE. It reminds me to take things easily and take it for good. It happened only, for some reasons that we might know or might not know. If things happened to be not good, or not the way you wanted it to be, what is the big deal? Come on, just be happy and don't be sad because it's not worth your time :)

Problems which I have encountered, it's better not to be revealed here =) Cause, it's not something good to say :( What can I say is, with this problem, it taught me not to trust anybody else surround me. Especially guys. So, now that I've said, you must be thinking I was having a relationship or breakup problems? No. Got raped? LOL Hell no. I just hate guys to do things I don't like behind my back. Enough said!

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Should I wait or should I not? To think of something else and put this thing aside is a little bit too hard sometimes cause I miss him so much! :'| Yes, no joke.

I've always thought I got over him already. But, that dude just won't stop crossing my mind :( I was wondering also, if I have ever crossed his mind. Well, I don't know.

It's good to know that I got over him already but sometimes, the feelings just keep pouring in and the same feelings as if 2010 was just yesterday. Sometimes I just think it's better o leave this aside and sometimes, I just can't help with it! I've never loved a person like this before. What is so good about him, that was what my friend asked me. But, I just can't tell you how amazing he is to me. No words can describe him. If there are words, there would be countless of words.

The sadness is that you have to build a relationship on trust.

I wasn't very happy about it actually, it made me a stronger person, you find out things about yourself that maybe you had not realised.

ZZZZZZ

Good Evening! I screwed my assignments FML and I have to redo all over again, great!

Bye! Off for dinner :) Then, continue with the bloody assignments! (:

xoxolowelaine