An Affirmation of Those Who Have Lost

An Affirmation of Those Who Have Lost

I believe there is no denying it: it hurts to lose.
It hurts to lose a cherished relationship with another,
or a significant part of one's own self.
It can hurt to lose that which has united one with the past,
or that which has beckoned one into the future.
It is painful to feel diminished or abandoned,
to be left behind or left alone.
Yet I believe there is more to losing than just the hurt and the pain.
For there are other experiences that loss can call forth.
I believe that courage often appears,
however quietly it is expressed,
however easily it goes unnoticed by others:
the courage to be strong enough to surrender,
the fortitude to be firm enough to be flexible.
the bravery to go where one has not gone before.
I believe a time of loss can be a time of learning unlike any other,
and that it can teach some of life's most valuable lessons:
In the act of losing, there is something to be found.
In the act of letting go, there is something to be grasped.
In the act of saying "good-bye," there is a "hello" to be heard.
For I believe that living with loss is about beginnings as well as
endings.
And grieving is a matter of life more than of death.
And growing is a matter of mind and heart and soul more than of body.
And loving is a matter of eternity more than of time.
Finally, I believe in the promising paradoxes of loss:
In the midst of darkness, there can come a great Light.
At the bottom of despair, there can appear a great Hope.
And deep within loneliness, there can dwell a great Love.
I believe these things because others have shown the way--
others who have lost and then have grown through their losing,
others who have suffered and then found new meaning.
So I know I am not alone:
I am accompanied, day after night, night after day.

Fact You Do Not Know About Me #1

Alright, so….finally I am here after so longggggggg. I was busy L Yes, very busy.

In this post, I’m gonna say something really short and straightforward, about myself. The title says it all; fact you do not know about me #1.

I LIKE CASUAL DATING.

Need some explanation? Don’t worry, I’ve planned to say something about it LOL

Casual dating, for me, doesn’t mean that I am flirty, no. I think you should go out and have fun. And when I say that, please don’t think the other way round.

I like casual dating. Meaning, you can have fun, but not to the extreme (whatever you think it is). Don’t you think it is fun? You don’t have to be committed and you can have fun, but please, control the word “fun” if you’re seriously into it. Like going out with a friend or with friends, socialize J

Back to the main topic.

Guys love flirts. The same goes to girls, well, not as many as compared to guys of course J

One thing you should really know is that…

I may be flirting around all day but before I go to sleep/about to sleep, I always think about the guy I truly care about.

You may see me flirting and being immature all day/sometimes, but before I go to sleep/about to sleep, I ALWAYS think about the guy I truly care about.

Yes. There are many people I care about but there is only this guy, at the moment, I truly care for.

You might think this some kind of bullshit, or some of you might not think it is. Anyway, this is fact #1 you should know about me.

Will be back for fact #2! *grins

xoxolowelaine

Emptiness

Release me from this mysterious waiting,

The stars are falling; the wind is blowing,

Finally I can hold you in my arms,

Two hearts beating together.

Believe me that my heart is never-changing,

Waiting a thousand years,

You have my promise,

Despite many bitter winters; I'll never let you go.

Close your eyes and tightly grab my hands,

Please recall the past-the-days we were in love,

We loved each other too much,

That is the source of our pain,

It is sorrowful that we can't even say "I love you".

Every night my heart aches,

I never stop thinking of you,

I am used to being alone for such a long time,

And I face it with a smile.

Believe me; I choose to wait,

Even though it's painful; I won't leave,

Only your tenderness can save me,

From the endless cold.

Let love be a blossoming flower in our hearts,

We can pass through time,

Never bowing our heads,

And never giving up our dreams.

Let love be a blossoming flower in our hearts,

We never forget our promise,

Only true love follows us as we pass through time,

It is sorrowful that we can't even say "I love you".

The love we have in our hearts, is the only never-changing myth.

xoxolowelaine

Bored

I have so many things to update you guys but I just don't know which one -.- Because, there are so many things to tell. And when I have so many things to tell, I ran out of topic and there is only one thing came into my mind which is about hair.

Well, I am bored with my hairstyle. I want to try BOB :O

As you know my I've changed it from straightened to permed right? I miss the straightened so much D: But, I want that BOB hairstyle as well! So, feel free to gimme your opinion :)

I think Emma Watson's short hair is not bad also :D Eva Longoria as well :)))))

xoxolowelaine

It suck

Hai good morning :) I am here to talk about my Economics lesson. It was a disaster as I didn't know how to answer her [teacher] simple [kinda hard?] questions. Such as graphs D: I was actually doing another homework when she was in front, explaining. Then, she called me to draw one of the graphs on the board FML. I drew whatever I understand, at first. The graph looked like this :


However, she gave me one day and when she called me the next morning to draw one of the graph, I was actually shocked =.=

Teacher: E-lin (thats what they used to call me). Mari depan tunjuk graph kelmarin, 'untung lebih normal'

Me: Huh?? 'Untung lebih normal' Kelmarin punya ka? Okay okay saya tau *but actually it sounded different cus yesterday was 'untung kurang normal* [ I didn't even know the graph's title -_- ]

Teacher: Yes yes, 'untung lebih normal'

Me: D: FML * I don't know * * walked to the front and draw a few lines* *was actually drawing 'untung kurang normal' * LOL!

Teacher: *stares* Saya beri you 10 minutes untuk tengok lu punya buku nanti saya panggil

Me: -_________________________-

After that, when I fully understand all these 8D I did it correctly HEH! :D Below one is 'Untung Kurang Normal'

Why? Because the MR=AR is below the AC. Which I am not so sure how to explain it here. I think I did it correctly? Correct me if I am wrong! :)

Had a wonderful dinner tonight with my dearest Madame Malini and all of my English Literature classmates! Will update about that soon. REAL SOON. Til' then, good night! xoxolowelaine