Dear, busybody ...

Yesterday was PA Paper 1 and it wasn't a good day. If you know me well maybe you might know why. It wasn't good because my leg hurts again. It's sad to have encountered with legs injuries last time, knowing that my condition won't be good in cold weather countries (not M'sia of course but when it rains, it'll be the same=pain). My grandma and mom used to call me ah ma LOL! In fact, they're the real ahma. Because, the condition of my legs when the weather is cold is exactly like ahma T.T

2nd, went out for dinner with dad, bro and sis then came back home to sleep. Thought I'd have a good night sleep so I get to focus and be more alert for English Literature Paper 2 (not really good in it T.T) BUTTTTT, dad woke me up when I had my nap, a short nap I'd say, to do documents for him. Like a secretary I tell you! LOL. It's not like I have any choices right? Besides he is my dad and I have no reason to not help him out :) If he gets more business, I get more money HAHAHAHA! Happiness overload == Although sometimes I think it is not fair for me -.- to see my younger siblings having their own sweet time, watching movies, loiter around, talking on phone, going out, sleeping, playing, etc and I have to be the busy one. Nvm lah dad, you can thank me later it's alright xD I hate the fact being the first child but it is the responsibility of an eldest child! Emo T.T

I got very grumpy cus I really needed to sleep so much, he could have asked my sister to do it, I've already taught her and needless to say my brother, his routines are, wake up, go out, come back, on phone with girlf, sleep and it keeps repeating. DIE! Major headache I tell you! -.- What to do with him? Sigh T.T Emo max this one. More emo than my personal problems. lol -.-

I'm pretty busy with my siblings and father's documents everyday and luckily I have a maid at home to do the chores. I never did that xD but all the worries my bro and sis gave me each day of my life has taught me to be a good mom in the near future LOL! Or at least, well prepared if I suddenly get married -.- Oooh and you must be wondering where the heck is my MOM? LOL. ... my mom doesn't live with us. *clears throat* I need not elaborate further :) So, yeah, if things goes wrong or out of control, I get the blame. *It's okay it's okay put the blame on me put the blame on me* Just because, I love my family more than anything, I might complain a little too much sometimes because I'm just another human :D -the end-

Okay, get back to topic. LOL! Sorry, really. When I get to crap, I will not stop omg -.-

Hmmm, I got very grumpy when my dad woke me up but at last I've completed his documents for him. After that, I heard "something" which was kinda unpleasant. I don't think you know I have a blog, but even if you do, please visit my blog and read this. And if you never get to read this, it's fine. Just do whatever you wish cus I couldn't care much about this anymore... I have nothing against you but you won't just stop interfering with my life. Worst of all, what does my mom has anything to do with your bullshits?

You have your life and I have my own. Mind your own business. Ever since last year which I didn't know why, the very thought of you makes me sick. Is it because you got so much older and you shrank and you got shorter and you hate the fact that my attitudes are as bad as rotten eggs? Please okay, accuse me for shits you want to but never involve my sister, brother or even my MOM in this. I respect you for who you are to me and please earn some respect from me as well. Yes, I'm thankful to you cus you helped me before this but that doesn't mean you can interfere with my life as you wish!

I am not spoiled. I work hard for things I want. So, stop saying I am because I am not. You should say that to your daughter (sorry I meant no harm) but not to me, certainly not my mother! Note that, very important, because you're a mother too. My mom loves me and of course my dad, my family too.They buy me something to show they love me and care for me and, I did not nag them for things I want.

I'll just end it right here before I go much more further and make the whole idea looks complicated. Just remember, words are powerful okay? I might take it because I'm young but not my parents and my grandma. I care so much is just because I love them.

Good night! x

P/S: You do not know me well to say I've changed. I'm still me, just the grown up E-Laine you see now. You certainly don't live with me although you watch me as I grow up but don't judge me until you've walked my path.

xoxolowelaine