Life & Facebook

Hello readers, so sorry for delaying it. I shouldn't let this "delay" becomes my habit. =) I'm here to tell something about my life, not too personal indeed. The matter why I've been missing since July 21st till now is because I was having a hard time dealing and confronting with reality. Too many problems and the worst part was they came altogether at the wrong time =.=

Exam is just around the corner, though it's a-first-monthly-test, I have to be prepared. Just in time, problem started to surface such as personal problems, families, studies, friends and NOT surprisingly, publics.

Families and friends are important to me at a same time =) But, just to let you guys know, I’m not a toy, I didn't say I am, so you guys don't have to make comments over my words =)

Actually things aren't that complicated, we humans complicate it. I'm writing this not only to my friends in my school, but from others too. Things must have gone completely wrong and insane days by days, which I didn't know why. But, I would like to stop this, just because I know it would be more complicated if we figure it out. If you're reading this, yes, you, I'm struggling with reality just to let you know, I don't live to please you. You know who you are, =) I think there's no point for us continue and for the sake of "figuring it out" after all what you've said to me last night. I apologize if I offended you, cus again I don't live to please you. I'm a human and I have feelings. Of course you're here not to waste your time, I agreed, cus I'm here not to waste my time too! Do you think I would like to waste my time so much just for the sake of it?? And the answer is NO! It's not your fault, blame it on me for being so foolish and you for being too smart. =)

God is fair sometimes, where I still have my superb friends around me to care about me, I'm thankful to my friends who cheer me up whenever I'm down. <3

Apart from that, my families are giving me problems these days. I love you them dearly, and I'm not here to talk bad about them but I have my right to say things I'm unhappy with. My dad sold off my lap top and I'm seriously mad with it. I really don't get what he wants sometimes. What's wrong with Facebook??? I couldn't get my things done as usual, because seriously, without laptop, studies are meaningless, I meant, MINE. (don't get it wrong) I started to fall off behind during class. one computer with more than 2 people a day who wanna use it, this shows how rare I can use the internet to finish my works. This is getting sickening, because this really pissed me off badly, whenever I think of it. Well, maybe some of you doesn't agree with this, but let me make it clear. THIS IS FOR ME NOT FOR YOU. =)

Happy to announce and not that glad, that I’ve won the title Prom Queen for my Lower Six orientation dinner. (You can see the picture in my profile). Lazy to blog about it, because I have more than a hundred of photos to upload and blog! Are ou kidding me? Sorry anyway =)

Last but not least, if people were to say I’m a celebrity, they know I’m not and if a star and OBVIOUSLY I’m NOT. Humans are created to be unique in their own ways, that, they still creating stories and gossiping not only on celebs but to normal people like me! Humans nowadays, are weird. Seriously, what must I say now? I’m surprised that people actually gossips about me OR the other way round? The answer is, both are wrong because I’m PISSED.

In fact, I couldn’t do anything but to let them enjoy whatever shits they feel like doing =) And I’m supposed to be happy because this proves I’m better than them anyway when they got jealous and started to create non-existent stories to drag me down.

Alright, it’s late now. See? How wiser could I be? I sacrifice my assignment times just to blog about me and to let you know. Thanks for reading. Goodnight! Will return to blog whenever I can =) xoxoforeverlowelaine